I never really had morning sickness with my other pregnancies but this one is certainly asserting itself over my stomach. Yesterday I felt sickish most of the late afternoon and evening. I kind of wonder if it wasn't the peanut butter choco crunch ball I had as a snack - a tiny 1 TB size ball.
A couple of weeks ago I was craving peanut butter in a bad way. I finally took a big spoonful and had animal crackers with it then got a second helping. That second helping totally did me in and made me feel sick like natural peanut butter does. Ever since then it has gotten worse. At this point I can't even think about peanut butter or smell it without making me feel nauseous. I've been on a granola bar making binge and just the thought of the peanut butter in them is a turn off :(
Today Mike and Tran go for their gender u/s. So excited to find out!! I have my first appt next Tues at 1:30. The boys are still in the dark, but Aaron will have to go with me. I am not quite sure how well that will go over.... I am debating having someone watch him, but we'll see. I decided to go with the homebirth midwives on the chance that I decide to do a homebirth. I figure this will be my one opportunity to do it so I might as well. But they only do the 20 wk u/s not a dating one :( On one hand I am amazed that I am already 8 weeks and on the other hand it is passing so slowly!!
I just remembered I was supposed to be making laundry soap this morning :(
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I have been musing over the timing of this event and all other things baby related. I just re-read my entries from 2010. I wished I had gone back and written a birth story because that is what I am seeking as I prepare to meet with midwives to find the right one for us. I want to know if the third followed the same pattern as J & A's. Did my water break? How long did it take to actually deliver? I remember going through transition and delivering the fetus, but I don't remember the timing.
This cycle started Dec 26. I miscarried Dec 24. What are the odds that I would get pregnant on the cycle that began when my last pregnancy ended? I even weigh the same as then. It is like a do-over with a pick up right where you left off.
I also realized that had the last pregnancy gone to term, this would be exactly 3 years later. My body seems to think that 3 years is great spacing :) And frankly, I do too.
This cycle started Dec 26. I miscarried Dec 24. What are the odds that I would get pregnant on the cycle that began when my last pregnancy ended? I even weigh the same as then. It is like a do-over with a pick up right where you left off.
I also realized that had the last pregnancy gone to term, this would be exactly 3 years later. My body seems to think that 3 years is great spacing :) And frankly, I do too.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
I am bursting at the seams!! I want to tell people - especially the boys. Last night Aaron asked why he had to be born last so today I brought the topic up again and told him the only way for him to not be the last is if I had another baby. He wanted to know when we were going to have another baby. I didn't answer him though I wanted to. Instead I asked if he wanted a brother or sister. At first he said sister, but then changed it to brother. Jared insisted on a sister. I told him to pray for one. Then asked what we would call her. He said we'd already decided, "peaches".
What are the odds that this last cycle is the only one I actually know for sure when I started and how long it lasted? I also just happened to ask a new mom which clinic she went to since she used a midwife for her delivery. Unfortunately that clinic does not take Tricare :( I miss my midwives in TX!
What are the odds that this last cycle is the only one I actually know for sure when I started and how long it lasted? I also just happened to ask a new mom which clinic she went to since she used a midwife for her delivery. Unfortunately that clinic does not take Tricare :( I miss my midwives in TX!
Friday, January 25, 2013
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Monday, November 12, 2012
Timing...
Nothing like some good news to lift the spirits.... Matthew passed his pt test last month which has been a huge hurdle for his career aspirations. Supposedly a job was waiting for him pending his success, but that was at least 4 months ago and a failure was in the mix too. Just a moment ago I just happened to decide to look up usajobs.gov because it had been awhile. To my surprise, there is a post for a unit admin at fort dix, NJ that opened today and closes the 23rd. I think this may be it!!! I tried calling Matthew but for some reason the call would not go through so I txted him. There is a position open it Ft Totten, NY as well which is just a little bit in from NJ so it is a reasonable distance as well. I am in awe at the timing of this.
When I was set apart in my new calling as a primary teacher, I was told that I would have the desires of my heart. I wasn't sure what desire the Lord was referring to. In the past it was clearly to have a baby and although I at times still feel that way, I don't think that was it. I think my biggest desire has been to stay in this area - this neighborhood - maybe even this house. Though I have hoped, I could not see how it would come to fruition. I could not see a motivation for our house-mates to leave. Saturday night I heard one: a possible opportunity for them to move to CA at the end of May. It is only a possibility, but what are the odds?! Should it happen in our current situation however, the $1800 rent plus utilities is out of our reach. We would not be able to afford staying here. I wondered if Matthew were to get the Army job if that would make staying a possibility. And lo and behold, the job has opened up just two days later. I don't know if I am hoping for too much, but I see the Lord's hand in this. It is too much of a coincidence for it not to be a blessing come to pass. So, I cross my fingers and pray that maybe things are working for our good in a more visible way.
When I was set apart in my new calling as a primary teacher, I was told that I would have the desires of my heart. I wasn't sure what desire the Lord was referring to. In the past it was clearly to have a baby and although I at times still feel that way, I don't think that was it. I think my biggest desire has been to stay in this area - this neighborhood - maybe even this house. Though I have hoped, I could not see how it would come to fruition. I could not see a motivation for our house-mates to leave. Saturday night I heard one: a possible opportunity for them to move to CA at the end of May. It is only a possibility, but what are the odds?! Should it happen in our current situation however, the $1800 rent plus utilities is out of our reach. We would not be able to afford staying here. I wondered if Matthew were to get the Army job if that would make staying a possibility. And lo and behold, the job has opened up just two days later. I don't know if I am hoping for too much, but I see the Lord's hand in this. It is too much of a coincidence for it not to be a blessing come to pass. So, I cross my fingers and pray that maybe things are working for our good in a more visible way.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Treading
I feel like I am sinking. I am tired. I know where the life boat is but it takes too much effort to reach it. As I struggled through my run emotionally and physically the song Walk Tall You're a Daughter started in my mind. I know it was meant to lift me up and comfort me.
This is an exercise in humility. I sat down at the table and opened the scriptures after my run (Something I've been neglecting which I know just exacerbates the problem) and opened to where I left off in 1 Nephi -- they get the Liahona and the bows break. I was drawn to the fact that even Lehi murmured at that point. I tried to imagine what he was complaining about: Lord, this is your journey. We have done all you wanted of us. We are hungry and this is hard. Why did the bows have to break? Or maybe he was just tired too. I realize that just because it is the Lord's journey doesn't mean that bad things won't happen. Why shouldn't they happen?
This is an exercise in humility. I sat down at the table and opened the scriptures after my run (Something I've been neglecting which I know just exacerbates the problem) and opened to where I left off in 1 Nephi -- they get the Liahona and the bows break. I was drawn to the fact that even Lehi murmured at that point. I tried to imagine what he was complaining about: Lord, this is your journey. We have done all you wanted of us. We are hungry and this is hard. Why did the bows have to break? Or maybe he was just tired too. I realize that just because it is the Lord's journey doesn't mean that bad things won't happen. Why shouldn't they happen?
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