Today is the Day

Up to this point we haven't heard anything about the mobilization, so we've been in carefree limbo. But, this morning when I knelt to pray the thought 'It'll happen" came into my mind. So, I expect we'll get the orders today while Matthew is at work. The start date is Friday, so he'd have to be in place before then. I've prayed that whatever is best for our family is what will happen, so in that regard I know we'll be just fine. But, I'm still feeling anxious. Most of that is just the anticipation and waiting I think though. Matthew told me last night that we need to get all of our money deposited today so we can start fresh at least. I do have all of my piano checks still from last month so I do really need to get them in the bank.

Yesterday was the Stake Conference broadcast from Salt Lake. It was a great meeting. Elder Jensen, Sis. Dibb (Pres Monson's daughter), Elder Ballard and Pres Monson were the speakers. How cool is it to say that Pres Monson spoke at our Stake Conference?! I think Sis. Dibb's was the most memorable for me because she gave us an acronym to remember:

Pray
Read the Book of Mormon every day for 5 min
Obey
Smile. We can follow the prophet by smiling and being happy :) I liked that one.

I talked to Jared about her talk afterwards. He's decided that he's going to make the BOM as part of his required 15 min of reading for school. He started last night and was a bit frustrated by all the hard names, but he finally settled on Alma preaching in Ammonihah. He made it through the first two pages, but he did it!

I asked him if he thought I smiled/was happy enough. He said that I was happy sometimes, but I was usually unhappy. When questioned further, he said that it was because of their - his - behavior that made me unhappy. I worry about how he will grow up and what kind of relationship we will have. I worry that he is not getting enough positive attention. Elder Ballard commented that families should be a safe haven. That there should be love and security there. It is easy to love on Aaron because he readily accepts it, initiates it, craves it. Jared needs it, but fights it too. He wants to be snuggly, but he can be rough about it and fight it. I had the boys switch places and separated them, and cuddled Jared. I know he relished it. I need to find ways to do that more and to give him positive attention.

Thurs he got in trouble for stealing - which is something we've talked to him a lot about. Honesty was one of the topics yesterday, and I wonder what kind of example am I setting? What do I need to change in the way I speak and act so that Jared will be more honest too?

I need to be more of a do-er instead of a passive sitter.