Hunger

I'm feeling the pull. As I was midcycle this month the impression came that I would get pregnant - which would really be perfect timing, but AF came as usual. I weighed in at 150.1 this morning, which means I have pretty much met my goal. I would not be surprised if the Lord allowed a pgcy to happen because I've met my goal. He is kind and thoughtful that way. I have found myself being sad at the new pg announcements popping up. It is nearing the time I should have been delivering. It is surreal to think we could have been preparing to bring home a baby any day now, but I'm honestly ok with that. I'm more sad at the new announcements than the babies preparing for birth.

My emotions have been like a light switch because for the last 9 months I've been ok with not having another baby. I was content with what we had, but the ache is returning. I'm hearing Matthew mention another baby here and there too. Usually it is in the context of, do we really want another one? But I hadn't heard any comments for awhile, and now I'm hearing them, which means it is on his mind as well. We will see what happens.