Still feeling disappointed, down, and weepy. I think I will ask Matthew for a blessing. I don't know that I can go two weeks with this worry and wondering. It isn't healthy. I did catch hold of the thought of Aaron and his drawing a baby in my arms and thinking he wouldn't have done it if it weren't really going to happen. I think it was too inspired. Every once in awhile he'll rub my tummy too. Though he went to the appt yesterday, I think he is too young to understand anything that was said. He could hear the doppler through the walls and just thought it was my own heartbeat.