Wanted to document an event that occurred on Tues. I sent this to Tran in a FB msg:

Today when I asked them if they wanted to go to my ultrasound was the first time they really got excited about the idea of a baby. At first Aaron didn't want to go because he was afraid the baby had died again. Our last miscarriage is pretty imprinted on his little heart and mind. When I assured him that this one was alive, his excitement was so cute!! He started talking to the baby even though I told him that it was too soon for the baby to be able to hear him. I won't for sure get my first ultrasound until Feb when they do the anatomy scan, but there is a possibility I could get one after my next appt on the 7th. We'll see.

After this little incident in the kitchen with the boys, we headed to the computer and watched Babycenter's videos of the growth of babies from week 1 all the way to full term. We also watched one about the development of boys and girls and ultrasounds. When we watched the one from the first weeks of pregnancy, I told the boys that that was about what ours looked like when it died. Jared wanted to know if it looked like that when it was 'born.' I told him the first one I could kind of see it but the second one I couldn't - it was mostly just blood. He found that odd but accepted it.

Today the boys went back to school so I headed to the store. I've been itching to get out of the house and shop by myself. I was obsessing over going to Good Will and gave in. Boy am I glad!! Almost all their maternity pants were my size!! I ended up with 3 pairs of jeans and 2 capris. I figured that even though it'll be awhile before I need the shorts, it'll be nice to have them when I want them b/c I won't have anything that fits then. I found a cute sweater top that is long and will make a good maternity top too. I can wear it now and probably through the rest of winter because the last button is at my waist though it goes down further like a maternity top. I also found a dress that was so cute I decided to buy it even though it falls a little short when I sit down. It comes to my knees while I'm standing, but won't work when I sit. I'm trying to think of a way to modify it so I can wear it modestly - probably with a long slip or leggings.

We are in the midst of a snow storm so there will be no school for the boys tomorrow. Today I was really productive and I'm afraid tomorrow will be another lazy day, but there's so much I want/need to get done that maybe I can pull myself together. It helped that we all had to get up and get going this morning. I left the boys' alarm on so maybe there's a chance we'll get it going.