For Christmas I gave Aaron a book called I'm a Big Brother. We thought he would understand what that meant, but it went completely over both boys' heads. Aaron finally read the book yesterday and I prompted him with questions until Jared finally understood that I was pregnant. After several discussions, I realized that Aaron didn't understand b/c in his mind there is a dead baby in my belly from the last m/c. I told him that no, this is a new baby. His next question was, why aren't you fat? ha! I told him I'm getting there :) He had more questions for me, but the conversation got derailed and I figure it doesn't really matter for the time being anyway. The reality of it is still a long way off.

A couple of thoughts I've had though...

• Jared will be turning 18 when this baby turns 8. He could baptize him/her just before leaving on a mission. 
• If we have another one in 3 years, Aaron will be in the same position (turning 18 and preparing for a mission), and Jared will be just coming home.
• I had kind of wanted the baby to be born earlier in June than later, but then I realized that the later s/he is born, the longer I'll be able to enjoy the pool!
• I tried on my maternity clothes and was extremely disappointed. I had size 10 ones there for me b/c I had a goal that I had reached. I didn't maintain it though so now I don't have clothes that fit. Most of the clothes are either too big or too small. I sabotaged myself :/ I finally feel motivated to exercise and care about what I'm eating again.