I am so nervous and scared about my appt today. I am scared to face it alone. I have been praying for the strength to face whatever the outcome may be. I have been on the verge of tears since Matthew walked out the door a little bit ago, and finally went over the edge. Be Still, My Soul (hymn 124) started running through my mind and I decided to copy and paste the lyrics to my other blog post. I believe it is from the Lord and an answer to my fears. Every time I read them I cry. Real tears. Tears of relief? sadness? anxiety? unreleased energy? tentative joy....

1. Be still, my soul: The Lord is on thy side;
With patience bear thy cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In ev'ry change he faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: Thy best, thy heav'nly Friend
Thru thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

2. Be still, my soul: Thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as he has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul: The waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while he dwelt below.

3. Be still, my soul: The hour is hast'ning on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul: When change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

Text: Katharina von Schlegel, b. 1697; trans. by Jane Borthwick, 1813-1897