Treading

I feel like I am sinking. I am tired. I know where the life boat is but it takes too much effort to reach it. As I struggled through my run emotionally and physically the song Walk Tall You're a Daughter started in my mind. I know it was meant to lift me up and comfort me.

This is an exercise in humility. I sat down at the table and opened the scriptures after my run (Something I've been neglecting which I know just exacerbates the problem) and opened to where I left off in 1 Nephi  -- they get the Liahona and the bows break. I was drawn to the fact that even Lehi murmured at that point. I tried to imagine what he was complaining about: Lord, this is your journey.  We have done all you wanted of us. We are hungry and this is hard. Why did the bows have to break? Or maybe he was just tired too. I realize that just because it is the Lord's journey doesn't mean that bad things won't happen. Why shouldn't they happen?