There's been lots I've wanted to write, but haven't taken the time to do it. I don't have much time right now either, so I'll get straight to my points:

Peter
- becoming more and more articulate. Yesterday Jared said, "Hi, Peter" and he immediately responded with a clear, "Hi, Jared". He'll sign and say 'more' and 'please'. He gives enthusiastic yes's and 'no's and 'mine'.
- becoming more and more opinionated. He has a clear idea of what he wants and doesn't want.
- loves Masha and the Bear and Star Trek Voyager
- loves his back being rubbed. In the wee hours of the morning he wanted to nurse, but I told him I'd rub his back instead. I was able to get him to go back to sleep this way. I was excited that a little bit later when he woke again, I was able to rub his belly with the same results. Eventually he become more insistent, but I was able to hold his hands in the position as if he were nursing to sleep and he slept deeply at that point.
- is a great helper. The other day he spontaneously cleaned up all the toys he'd pulled out. On Thursday he vacuumed along side me and helped me sweep the floor too. He'll put dishes in the sink or hand them to me from the dishwasher. He'll wipe up spills.
- is becoming more independent. He wants to dish himself up at dinner and help make food. The other day he helped me make a batch of muffins. I got the ingredients in the measuring spoons and he dumped them in the bowl and helped stir. He will help me wipe himself when I change his diaper.
- likes things to be in order. We got new puzzles this week and I've allocated a shelf for them at the moment. I put them away on the shelf, and he had to rearrange the order so that they matched the order they were in originally. There was another example of this, but I can't remember at the moment.

Me - I am getting some moles checked out. I originally had an appt tomorrow, but the reviews on the office were so poor it made me nervous and found a different dr. Now I'll need to wait for an extra week. The mole on the right side of my neck has gotten extra itchy and irritated. Other spots on my skins have also started to raise red flags. It's been a bit of a wake up call as I consider the real possibility that it could be cancerous. I've always assumed I'd live longer than Matthew, and thought it was realistic that I'd only have another 15 years with him. This week the thought came, what if it's me instead? What if that is the reason my journals would be so important to my posterity? What if I don't get to watch Peter grow up? It's a sobering thought. I'm two - now three - months back into reading and praying regularly and it has made such a difference. I feel like I'm so much closer to my old self - who I really am. It's been amazing. I was able to be in the temple two weeks in a row thanks to Matthew's encouragement. Tuesdays are supposed to be night off to go to the temple or participate in other activities but only recently have I actually had the night free to go to the temple. The first week was sealings, but I desparately wanted to do an endowment session. It was too full, and I yearned to return soon. Tuesday rolled around, and I remembered I could go again. It was wonderful. Everything was so clear. I realized all the extra stuff is just that. What really matters is the gospel and my family. Now to translate that into action. I want my family to know how much I care.  I want them to know I love them. I want us to be together forever. I want my boys to know the Savior. I feel that burning inside that ignites a passion for sharing the gospel. It is reality.

I need to get the boys up for church now, but I want to share about Jared and Aaron too. Hopefully later on today.